Category Archives: slowing down

Stumped….

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Stumped….

“Everyone has his own reality in which, if one is not too cautious,timid, or frightened, one swims. This is the only reality there is.”  ― Henry MillerStand Still Like the Hummingbird

Life is funny. Somedays it feels like my life is moving faster than a speeding bullet, and on others it feels like I am standing utterly still. I don’t really know what to do with myself when I am standing motionless. I think I much prefer the speed of sound. There are days when I get on my computer to do my work as a writer or to take care of band business and 8 hours later I am sick to death of seeing the screen and the keyboard. Then there are other days, days like today, where I am staring at the screen and keyboard with a blank deer in headlights look because there is nothing to do. I have all of my articles wrapped up for the week, the band webpage is as far as I can go with it for now and the only things I have to do are write down the lyrics to a couple of new songs that we are in the process of learning. I think once that’s done it is a good day to clean house and catch up on “Uncle Tom’s Cabin.”  Have a peaceful day everyone and with that I leave you with one of my favorite Concrete Blond songs….

I’d Like a Cup of Relaxation Please With a Side of Over Easy Day

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I’d Like a Cup of Relaxation Please With a Side of Over Easy Day

Take rest; a field that has rested gives a bountiful crop.  ~Ovid

I am taking a day off from riding bike. This week I have logged 45 miles and lost about a pound. I can live with it. It has been a productive week and happy for the most part. I really have no complaints. I am adding more songs to my set list today and have the goal of producing another video for YouTube today, doing some artwork, rehearsing,  reading a few chapters of “Uncle Tom’s Cabin” and doing some housework. Believe it or not this is my idea of relaxing…LOL. I have a day of peace and relaxation planned, nothing more, nothing less!

Gifts For the Birdies and the Squirrels

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Gifts For the Birdies and the Squirrels

“Better than a thousand hollow words, is one word that brings peace.”~Buddha

I have so many things that could upset me today, so many things that I could try and control today, so many things that could upset the balance of my universe. I refuse. I refuse to allow outside disturbances to put me on a path that does not lead to peace. Peace of mind and peace of heart. Pure peace and that alone shall stand. Yesterday my sunflowers needed to be cut down, they had been attacked by earwigs and were sickly looking. Yet, even though they looked sick, upon closer inspection I could see that they still bore the fruits of their labors. They were loaded with sunflower seeds. So, in apology for their early demise, I cut them down and offered the sunflower heads to the birdies and the squirrels. After all they might as well give their fruits back to nature. Much like life, some thing or some one may look sickly on the outside, however; if you look deep enough you can find the seeds of good offering themselves up for sharing and giving back in a spirit of peace and good will. 

My Sunflower Heads

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Nothing Prolific or Profound

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Nothing Prolific or Profound

Leonardo da Vinci – “Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.”

I have nothing prolific or profound to offer today. In fact, yesterday was one of my most relaxing days in quite some time. Yes, I did rehearse as usual, but we have most of the kinks worked out so that was easy breezy. Yes, I went to my daily meeting and it was a full meeting. The topic was fear, but I chose to listen instead of speak. Yes, I cooked dinner as I do every night, and even that task was simple and easy. I did absolutely no house cleaning and the only real work I did yesterday was to read my Buddhist text and write in my journals. I love it. I even took 2, yes 2, naps yesterday. Days of simplicity and ease like this are so rare that I treasure them. We have a gig today but my stress level is so low….I am loving it!

I Need to Buy a Moment, Please?

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I Need to Buy a Moment, Please?

Run rabbit run
Dig that hole, forget the sun
And when at last the work is down
Don’t sit down, it’s time to dig another one

Pink Floyd-“Breathe

Up until Saturday everything was relatively under control. I spent all morning and afternoon working on my gardens. Pulling weeds, sending encouragement and love to the newly planted seeds and vegetables. Rosie decided to help, but her idea of help is what it is, not very useful…see for yourself.

 

At the end of the day it’s all good, I got my gardening done and she got her nappy-poo. Well, then it was time to get ready for dinner and a night out with my BF Boo. We hadn’t really sat down and talked in like 3 years because he lives 3 hours away and we had a lot of ground to cover. Boo and Nick, his younger brother, took me out for pool and we had a blast, but a very late night. Since Monday my week is already picking up speed like a runaway freight train. I have had no time to write until today, I have to go pick up my mountain bike which has been in the shop over a week, I have to get ready for my daughter’s graduation for which I have the fun of spending several hours on the drive from the Boise area to ISU in Pocatello and back again, thank Buddha for my Kindle. I have this insane list of things that I need to do before leaving at 5 am Thursday morning and I am already exhausted LOL. Now, my darling mother has informed me that she wants to put the car in the shop between now and Wednesday, and I am thinking, “That’s fabulous, but where on Earth do I squeeze the car into the few minutes of sanity I have left?”  

I will manage, I always do, and guess what, everything on my ever increasing list most likely will not get done. Ciest la vie. I am only one person. Can someone sell me an extra day? 

Relax!

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Relax!

There’s never enough time to do all the nothing you want.  ~Bill Watterson,Calvin and Hobbes

We went out to the lake yesterday. It was a beautiful day and I was feeling rather tense and down. I am not really sure why. My life is good, I just gained another level in my writing credentials, I went up from a  level 3 writer to a level 4 on Knoji after about 2 years, I am accomplishing more than ever since maintaining my sobriety and most of my sanity. I just couldn’t seem to get my head out of “that” place. My daughter had a great time, and I think that’s all that really matters. She took a bunch of very cool pictures I thought I would share with you. She is such an artistic little soul and it shows in her photos.

I hate having my photo taken and of course she had to take this one while I was reading

I took this one of her

I had to include this Eagles video…peace everyone!

Foundations

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Foundations

Aquarius Horoscope for week of May 10, 2012

Verticle Oracle cardAquarius (January 20-February 19)
If you’ve been tuning in to my horoscopes during the past months, you’re aware that I have been encouraging you to refine and deepen the meaning of home. You know that I have been urging you to get really serious about identifying what kind of environment you need in order to thrive; I’ve been asking you to integrate yourself into a community that brings out the best in you; I’ve been nudging you to create a foundation that will make you strong and sturdy for a long time. Now it’s time to finish up your intensive work on these projects. You’ve got about four more weeks before a new phase of your life’s work will begin. 

 

Although I am not a believer in horoscopes per say, but I always love Rob Brezney’s sound advice on my horoscopes and that is why I publish it in my blogs each week. There have been some weeks where he has missed the mark, but most the time I find he seems to have his finger on the pulse of what may be happening in my life at that time. I have really been focusing on my environment the last few weeks, including things like planting my garden, making time for art work and music and making more time to read. I have also been working steadily on my sobriety, as many who follow my blog know. I have been embracing and trying to understand what works and doesn’t work for me. This is just a little thank you to Rob for his wonderful little snippets of advice, you have been unseen in person but a loudly heard positive influence in my ever chaotic, ever expanding world!

Time!

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Time!

Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain. You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today

And then one day you find ten years have got behind you. No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun. Pink Floyd

I have been doing some reminiscing the past week and have come to realize a few things. Why is it that men age so much more gracefully than women? Just past 42 and I see the lines in my face of time, the scars in my face of the past and I still see a pretty face, just a different one. I find that I use more makeup now than I ever have in my life except when going out for a special night. Trying my best to disguise the lines, trying to cover the scars. I have also been reminiscing about the time I used to spend reading. When I was a little girl one of my favorite things to do was to curl up with a book and read for hours and hours. I would take whatever book I was currently reading into the bath with me and read. Many of my books had curled pages from the steam of the bath. I used to read anywhere from 2-3 books a week, now I find that I can barely get in 1-2 books a year. I think a lot of this is due to the fact that I am reading on a Kindle now instead of holding the real book in my hands. Somehow, holding a book in your hands, feeling the pages turn beneath your fingers, all of the things about reading from a book are so personal. Now, with my Kindle, it feels cold and impersonal and I almost wish I had my real books back. Kind of like I wish I had my other face back. Ah, but for the movement of time. We  all wish we could have more and yet I have realized there isn’t anymore. What I am allotted is what I have and I need to take full advantage of it. Yes, my face is going to change. Yes, my body is going to falter, but hell that’s life. I’m just having trouble adjusting to my “new” older face,  just as I am having trouble adjusting to a book without pages. Guess I’ll just have to deal with it and learn to adjust. Sure wish I had that mirror that the evil step-mother had…..Just kidding!

Slow Down and Just Breathe

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Slow Down and Just Breathe

Aquarius Horoscope for week of March 22, 2012

Verticle Oracle cardAquarius (January 20-February 19)
As I was driving my car in San Francisco late one night, I arrived at a traffic signal that confused me. The green light was radiant and steady, but then so was the red light. I came to a complete stop and waited until finally, after about two minutes, the red faded. I suspect you may soon be facing a similar jumble of mixed signals, Aquarius. If that happens, I suggest you do what I did. Don’t keep moving forward; pause and sit still until the message gets crisp and clear. 

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Free will astrology really gave me some good advice for this week.I have a habit of jumping the gun and moving too fast into things and then wondering why I crash and burn! Also, what they had to say about nurturing my artistic side really hit home because I have been trying to get back into doing artwork again after taking almost a year off from drawing and painting. It was very good advice!