Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them. - Henry David Thoreau
I have been meaning to write down my bucket list for years and I figure there is no better time than the present. I have no intentions of dying anytime soon, however it would be very cool if I at least had a list of the things I want to accomplish before I die. The thing is, if I don’t get it written down I may never even attempt some of the things that I have mentally been promising myself I would do. I don’t know what the next life is going to bring, but I sure know that for this life, before I exhale my last breath, I want to know, in my mind’s eye, that I have accomplished something in this one. and what better day to start it than on April Fool’s Day…=). I guess if I don’t accomplish everything I can always say I was only kidding! So here goes:
1. To go to New Orleans for Mardi Gras for my Birthday
2. To visit the home of my family, Cowbridge, Glamorganshire, Wales
3. To see “The Phantom of the Opera” live at least once
4. To learn how to can vegetables in a pressure cooker (this is a good year to do this because I am going to have a large garden)
5. To read all the plays by Shakespeare at least once ( working on it)
6. To go to Key West Florida while I am still in good enough shape to enjoy it
7. To go to Tibet
8. To quit smoking ( big time! This could end my bucket list =))
9. Own my own restaurant
10. Write one book
I think 10 on my list is a good starting point. I’ll leave it at that for now.
Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don’t complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don’t bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality . Wake Up and Live! Bob Marley
There are signs of life here. I see them, and I feel them moving in an inextricable force that is moving me closer to healing. When I completed the melody for the song I wrote, “Empty (Cease to Exist)” I knew there were signs of life in me. It’s the first song I have completed from beginning to end in 2 years and for once I am happy with the results. The final step is working out the rough edges and going into the studio to record, but that is by far two of the easiest steps I will have to take. There are signs of life here. I dream them, and they are moving in mysterious patterns to help me heal. I had a dream the other day about a friend that I had broke off my friendship with. When I woke up there was a message from her on facebook. Talk about your weird case of dejavu. We hadn’t spoke in months and the same morning I dream about her she sends me a message. I looked at the time she sent the message and it was about the time I was waking from dreaming about her. The dream I was having was not a good one, it brought to surface all the negative energy I was feeling about our relationship. Call it psychic energy, call it ESP, call it what you will, but for me it was just too strange that she should message after months of silence on that particular day and at that particular time. It’s a sure sign of life in my healing process that I am able to forgive myself for the mistake I made in our relationship and a definite sign that I am healing that I have forgiven her. There are signs of life here, I messaged her back and friended her, a sure sign that I am healing.
Old friends pass away, new friends appear. It is just like the days. An old day passes, a new day arrives. The important thing is to make it meaningful: a meaningful friend – or a meaningful day. Dalai Lama
If only for today I am happy. I care not what tomorrow may bring after the trials and tribulations I have faced in all my yesterdays. For today I am at peace. For I know now that my tomorrows are in my control to make peaceful and happy based upon my actions. For today I am happy. I have washed away all of yesterday’s tears because they can not be taken back into my eyes. I am living for today. For the past I can not alter or change and tomorrow may never come. If only for today I am alive like never before. For I have let the demons of the past go and stopped worrying about the path of tomorrow. If only for today, because that is all that truly matters!
“Excellence can be obtained if you care more than others think is wise, risk more than others think is safe, dream more than others think is practical, expect more than others think is possible.” -Unknown
I like to believe that this much is very true. That if I strive for excellence and care very much about the things I am passionate about they will pay me back ten fold with fulfillment and joy. A great part of reaching this excellence is achieved in stepping out on the edge of the cliff and not allowing yourself to be afraid of the HUGE drop in front of you. It is to look at the fear of failure and face it head on and tell yourself I will not be afraid. For if I risk nothing I gain nothing. You have to dream big and face those frightening challenges ahead if you are to ever expect to achieve your goals and reach to the highest pinacles.
- I Believe in You (inallthingshope.wordpress.com)
- I Am Not Afraid (marvaseatonpoetry.wordpress.com)
- The Faces of Fear: Caged Spirit (doitafraid.net)
The fence around a cemetery is foolish, for those inside can’t get out and those outside don’t want to get in. Brisbane, Arthur
I am having claustrophobia today! It’s going to be my 42nd Birthday on Sunday and I’m sitting here postulating death! What a maudlin person am I to sit contemplating 50 when I haven’t yet begun to live. I realize of course I am just being foolish and on that note I think I will go out and have some fun!