Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain. You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today

And then one day you find ten years have got behind you. No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun. Pink Floyd

I have been doing some reminiscing the past week and have come to realize a few things. Why is it that men age so much more gracefully than women? Just past 42 and I see the lines in my face of time, the scars in my face of the past and I still see a pretty face, just a different one. I find that I use more makeup now than I ever have in my life except when going out for a special night. Trying my best to disguise the lines, trying to cover the scars. I have also been reminiscing about the time I used to spend reading. When I was a little girl one of my favorite things to do was to curl up with a book and read for hours and hours. I would take whatever book I was currently reading into the bath with me and read. Many of my books had curled pages from the steam of the bath. I used to read anywhere from 2-3 books a week, now I find that I can barely get in 1-2 books a year. I think a lot of this is due to the fact that I am reading on a Kindle now instead of holding the real book in my hands. Somehow, holding a book in your hands, feeling the pages turn beneath your fingers, all of the things about reading from a book are so personal. Now, with my Kindle, it feels cold and impersonal and I almost wish I had my real books back. Kind of like I wish I had my other face back. Ah, but for the movement of time. We  all wish we could have more and yet I have realized there isn’t anymore. What I am allotted is what I have and I need to take full advantage of it. Yes, my face is going to change. Yes, my body is going to falter, but hell that’s life. I’m just having trouble adjusting to my “new” older face,  just as I am having trouble adjusting to a book without pages. Guess I’ll just have to deal with it and learn to adjust. Sure wish I had that mirror that the evil step-mother had…..Just kidding!

8 responses »

  1. Wait a second. It sounds like it”s some kind of impossible thing: to pick up a book. Me too, I read much less than I used to. But there is no magnetic or other force keeping me from reading. Some things are still under our control. Like reading. There are things we have little choice about – other than how we react to them…..Like growing old. And men do have it a bit easier, because they aren’t called upon to be pretty the way women are. Appearance is not so important for a man’s ego.

  2. I asked a (male) friend just this past weekend why it is that older men look dignified, yet women seem to just look old. I think there are exceptions to that, but still…! I do notice, though, that people who are older and look good (to me) seem to have an energy and a glow of vitality about them. I think I may be able to manage that, and I am sure that you can, Jaz! ~ Lily

  3. I think that if one is out and about and active, one will never notice that one has a new face. As my wise old grandmother said, “LIfe is a journey, not an end. Enjoy the journey.” To which I always add, “And take lots of pictures to share!”

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