Summer Madness

Summer Madness

A bee is never as busy as it seems; it’s just that it can’t buzz any slower. Kin Hubbard

I can’t believe how crazy, busy my life has been just in the last two weeks since the weather improved, and it’s not just the weather that is making my life crazy. For the last two weeks solid I have done nothing but spend 8 hours a day on the guitar. Now this may not seem like much to some guitar players, but for me, a lead vocalist by trade, it is a lot! It is paying off. I am doing some things I never thought I would ever be able to do on the guitar. My fingers hurt like hell and I have these fabulous callouses on the tips of the fingers of my right hand that are my badge of honor now, but it is paying off. Of course this isn’t the only thing making my life crazy. My garden is doing well. but it is a labor of love that I am really enjoying. Water every other day, weed twice a week and love, love, love. It’s paying off as well. My life is happy. I blame this bliss on sobriety. I can guarantee you that during the last 10 years I have lost more than my share of time and productivity to being on my face. I think of all the time I threw away drinking and I could just kick myself. If you have been there you know what I am talking about. Fortunately I am sober and finally starting to achieve some of the things that I should have done a long time ago. It’s sad that I could allow addiction to eat up so much of my life, but for me now everyday is a blessing and for everyday I remain sober that blessing is two fold! It may not seem like much, and maybe it isn’t but I will take it!

22 responses »

  1. This is a good post Jaz, good attitude. You have been in my thoughts. Sorry to read (belatedly) some of the “crummy week” posts and such. Are you writing music, you and your creativity with your new guitar skills?? ~ Lily

  2. Love that the callouses on the tips of your fingers are your ‘badge of honor’ – I guess you’ve earned each one …well done on the gardening, such a joy, and hey, I love your choice of song to celebrate 🙂

  3. Jaz, it is huge! Never think otherwise. Having worked as a rehab counselor for a number of years I can tell you that long term sobriety is quite elusive. I believe, from experience, that AA’s estimate of a 10% recovery rate is vastly inflated. I would estimate 3 to 5% as being generous. Also remember or learn that there is a huge difference between being clean and being sober. Being clean means clean of having alcohol and/or drugs in your system. Being sober means having successfully pulled your head out of the tunnel.
    You mentioned an a**hole in a previous post who had years of being clean but none, IMO, in being sober. Don’t sweat it. Your path is yours and you should not let others get in your way!
    Steven Narbonne

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