I don’t feel in touch with anything. Everything feels unnatural to me. The lights seem brighter, the darkness more black/ I feel more tired. I held your bear and I listened to it, but it sounds more like the batteries are dead, like you. It doesn’t have the same life or vivacity that it once did. Part of me is gone, gone forever just like Joey, Emmy, Yukee and Heday. You weren’t supposed to leave me. Dan is having a hard time, he is lost and doesn’t know what to do. I wish I could make you come back.