There’s an inherent thing in me where, if things are going too smooth, I’ll sabotage the hell out of them, just to make the music more of a sanctuary. Daniel Johns
When things are going well it kind of intimidates me because it seems I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop. LOL. I know I should stop being a pessimist and cynical, but I think as humans we are all like this. Things in my life are going so smoothly that even a little bump in the road this week, a backstabbing by a so-called friend, didn’t even phase me. What is wrong with me?! The music is flowing well, by vocals are building back up to the level of playing with a full band again, and I am happy. We are all healthy and I really haven’t one single complaint. Money is tight, as always, but this is nothing new. So life is good. I will take the smooth road, thank you very much and could I have a large side of fries with that? 😀
What an amazing week this has been! As some of you may know this is the week we celebrated our wedding anniversary. Yesterday we all got together at Memorial Park and had a sausage dog roast with all the kitchen sink fixings. We got a couple of really great cards!
Michael is so very sweet and loving, He got me this card and these beautiful roses for our anniversary:
We were fortunate enough to have a great bunch of people join us for our celebration:
I got some really great and unexpected gifts! I got this new/used camera that took all these wonderful pictures, and I got my old guitar back, the story of the Cosmic Boomerang Guitar explains it all.
All in all it has been a wonderful week to say the least!
We start to realize that there are anodynes in life that help us through the day. I don’t care if it’s a walk in the park, a look out the window, a goodbubble bath – whatever. Even a meal you like, or a friend you want to call. That helps us solve all this stuff in our head.~ Al Pacino (April 25, 1940 – )
I feel a bubble bath coming on, that’s right. I love bubble baths. When I was a kid I would crawl into a bubble bath and all my child’s worries and cares would sink into the water and disappear just like the bubbles in my bath, slowly dissipating. In that few moments, floating in the bath with the bubbles I am free, care-free and unconcerned about anything. It is my meditation and my release. As an adult I rarely take the time for a leisurely bubble bath anymore, but today, today is a bubble bath day. My favorite bubble bath aroma is cucumber melon and I am going to soak in the aromas and light the candles and just gel for about 20 minutes. Please don’t knock at my door or call on my phone, I am in Do Not Disturb mode. Leave a message at the beep!
“The night is mine, my own time, to do with it as I will, as long as I am quiet. As long as I don’t move. As long as I lie still. The difference between lie and lay. Lay is always passive.” ― Margaret Atwood, The Handmaid’s Tale
We all need space, space of our own, time of our own. It is fruitful for us to all have a little alone time. My husband has been laid off a little over a month now and I am ever so grateful that he finally returned to work today. Whenever he is home my whole schedule gets disrupted and I get 80% less done than I would were he not laid off. I am not really sure why that is but him being home everyday is a constant disruption to my rehearsal time, my house cleaning and a plethora of things. Don’t get me wrong, I love my husband very much and he’s my BFF, but spending time together ever day and night. day in and night out gets very wearing after about a week. So, now I am back to my regularly scheduled program, YAY~
Sorry about the crazy Pantera video, but I like it LOL!
Take rest; a field that has rested gives a bountiful crop. ~Ovid
I am taking a day off from riding bike. This week I have logged 45 miles and lost about a pound. I can live with it. It has been a productive week and happy for the most part. I really have no complaints. I am adding more songs to my set list today and have the goal of producing another video for YouTube today, doing some artwork, rehearsing, reading a few chapters of “Uncle Tom’s Cabin” and doing some housework. Believe it or not this is my idea of relaxing…LOL. I have a day of peace and relaxation planned, nothing more, nothing less!
Make the best use of what is in your power and take the rest as it happens. Epictetus
I found that the biggest part of my enjoyment and serenity yesterday cam from my sheer and open lack of expectations for what the day may bring. We played a gig last night with a drummer and bass player that we had never played with before and it went really great! It was as if we had always played together. The people who came to see us had a great time, as did I. Who could ask for more?!
- until the next breath ~ (missrosen.wordpress.com)
The final wisdom of life requires not the annulment of incongruity but the achievement of serenity within and above it. Reinhold Niebuhr
This is my drawing of my place of serenity. On Sunday when I met with my sponge (sponsor) Jules for the first time this is where I went when I was having such a hard day the night before. Saturday was filled with triggers and hurt and I needed a place to go to work through my thoughts and get back in balance with nature and myself. Meeting with Jules was such a blessing, everything just melted away from me. I call her a sponge because I am her spongee and I plan on sucking everything I can out of her, and she is full of all kinds of great wisdom for sobriety. I have so much to be grateful for and in the last month I have begun to see the things and people that were there before me, just waiting for me to open up my eyes and see. They were always there with open arms, all I had to do was be willing to walk into the embrace. It’s amazing how alcohol clouds your vision, blurs your mind and makes you numb. In the beginning isn’t that what all alcoholics seek, blindness and a numbing and dulling of the senses? We don’t want to see, we don’t want to feel. You just don’t realize until you quit, and I mean really quit, how much you have missed.
I just wanted to share my 4th of July week in pics. It’s been really busy and a whole lot of fun!!!!
Down at Indian Creek
My Dragonfly Drawing and Symbolism
Kira having fun!
To find the universal elements enough; to find the air and the water exhilarating; to be refreshed by a morning walk or an evening saunter… to be thrilled by the stars at night; to be elated over a bird’s nest or a wildflower in spring – these are some of the rewards of the simple life. ~John Burroughs
It was sooooo hot yesterday! When we were playing our gig, it must have been over 100 even under the canopy we were playing under. I felt like we were standing at the gates of hell and, like Dante‘s gates of hell, the words “Abandon All Hope Ye Who Enter Here”were imprinted on the top of the gates. Virgil was waving me to come forth and journey, but who in their right mind would choose to go 9 levels deeper when you can already feel the heat at the entrance! Yes, it was that hot! The best parts of my day were the cover I did of Adele’s “Make you Feel My Love” and a few others. Some other highlights: When I took breaks I would go down to Indian Creek and soak my feet and the water was so cool and refreshing. Before the gig started Kira and I wandered over to Pet Haven, a thrift store, looking for scarves to tie onto my tambourine. I found the scarves but decided to buy a purse that was exactly the style I have been looking for to carry my wallet, my kindle and other miscellaneous things. The color is a little much for me, but hell, for $3.50 who can complain, especially when you only have $5 on you? I also found an unusual little broken brooch for 50 cents, the pin on the back is missing but it has all these cool music symbols on it. Hey, if the shoe fits, right? And, the finale, a nice night ride on our mountain bikes down by the river with flashlight bungied to our handlebars. Life is good!
Leonardo da Vinci – “Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.”
I have nothing prolific or profound to offer today. In fact, yesterday was one of my most relaxing days in quite some time. Yes, I did rehearse as usual, but we have most of the kinks worked out so that was easy breezy. Yes, I went to my daily meeting and it was a full meeting. The topic was fear, but I chose to listen instead of speak. Yes, I cooked dinner as I do every night, and even that task was simple and easy. I did absolutely no house cleaning and the only real work I did yesterday was to read my Buddhist text and write in my journals. I love it. I even took 2, yes 2, naps yesterday. Days of simplicity and ease like this are so rare that I treasure them. We have a gig today but my stress level is so low….I am loving it!
You may be a redneck if… your lifetime goal is to own a fireworks stand. Jeff Foxworthy
I had the most amazing 4th of July…And, I was SOBER! I do believe it is the first 4th I have celebrated sober in many, many years! We started our day at the park and watched a very cool Veterans ceremony, then it was on to the puppet show. For a small town (pop around 30,000) the puppet show was really good and I was amazed at the quality of the puppets, they were made very much like what you would see on Sesame Street. After that there was a Christian band that did this really cool rendition of the song from Sesame Street. Yes, Sesame Street. After the celebration at the park we went to watch the fireworks on our mountain bikes with four other people that are of a like mind with maintaining their sobriety. We laughed and had so much fun! It is a very cool reminder that, yes indeed, there are things that can be a whole lot of fun without adding alcohol into the mix. I remember every detail of last night and didn’t wake up with a mind bending hangover! YAY! I hope everyone had a fabulous 4th!
“I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.” ― Douglas Adams, The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul
The last two weeks have been a trip! I can’t believe how much things can turn around, and how quickly. I feel like, even through my failures, I have ended up exactly where I am supposed to be. I got some very hard news yesterday, which two weeks ago would have dropped me to my knees. I was able to take the news really much better than even I could have expected. I couldn’t believe how calm and rational I was. Where is Jaz and what did you do with her mind? At any rate, I’m glad to be here and life is good. Frankly, for the first time in a long time I am not just along for the ride, I am actually driving and I have to tell you it feels spectacular!
When the spirits are low, when the day appears dark, when work becomes monotonous, when hope hardly seems worth having, just mount a bicycle and go out for a spin down the road, without thought on anything but the ride you are taking. ~Arthur Conan Doyle
The last two weeks has been such an incredibly fruitful time, but I have hardly taken time out of my work schedule to take care of myself or spend time with other people. Yesterday was a day of work from the time I arose until I finally quit around 11 pm last night. The day had been intensely hot and when I finished up with the last song of the night I decided to go for a little midnight bike ride. Oh it was so cool and refreshing! We went down to the river and rode the green belt. The moon was showing part of it’s pretty face, the air was sweet and refreshing and all the cares of the day dropped away as if they had never been there. I didn’t even mind getting stopped by the bicycle police for not having a headlight on my bike! The joy of a bike ride can be such a release after a day of intense work. If you don’t believe me you should try it sometime.
There’s never enough time to do all the nothing you want. ~Bill Watterson,Calvin and Hobbes
We went out to the lake yesterday. It was a beautiful day and I was feeling rather tense and down. I am not really sure why. My life is good, I just gained another level in my writing credentials, I went up from a level 3 writer to a level 4 on Knoji after about 2 years, I am accomplishing more than ever since maintaining my sobriety and most of my sanity. I just couldn’t seem to get my head out of “that” place. My daughter had a great time, and I think that’s all that really matters. She took a bunch of very cool pictures I thought I would share with you. She is such an artistic little soul and it shows in her photos.
I hate having my photo taken and of course she had to take this one while I was reading
I took this one of her
I had to include this Eagles video…peace everyone!
- My hero: Bill Watterson (manbehindthecurtain.ie)
- Brilliant Insight (jmwisdom.wordpress.com)