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Understanding Duality

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Understanding Duality

“Light is meaningful only in relation to darkness, and truth presupposes error. It is these mingled opposites which people our life, which make it pungent, intoxicating. We only exist in terms of this conflict, in the zone where black and white clash.”  Louis Aragon

Whether we know it or not we all have dual natures, a darkness that meets the light. Most people are afraid to explore the darker side of their duality, the darker side of their nature. The fear of what they may find if they looked really deep into that dark pit keeps them rooted in ignorance of the truth within them. It takes a strong person to face their darkest fears, and those darkest of fears are the things which they desire that are not considered “normal” by societies moral standards. They fear the carnal desires that may live deep in their psyches, down in the trenches, pushed down and controlled. What of the serial killer? Is this the person who has examined his duality and acted on those desires?…It begs the question. However, if you truly want to know who you are you must explore those deep dark caverns to know with absolute certainty what and who you are in even your darkest fear and desire.

Controlling Anger

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Controlling Anger

*Note from Jaz* Of course not all of the subjects I touch on are going to be happy, life simply doesn’t work that way. This blog is intended to show all facets of my path with Buddha,good and bad. 
Last night I had a moment of pure white hot anger. My daughter lives with her Father and Step-Mother about 300 miles away so we communicate via Facebook and Yearbook. Her step-mother has a severe drinking problem and some deep seeded emotional issues. Last night while going through her Facebook I saw that Kira (my daughter) had posted a bunch of very upsetting posts about her rage toward her step-mother for her drinking, her emotional abuse and more. I was more than a little upset. It took me a bit to calm down but when I finally did I realized that it is not in my control to fix this problem. I realized that the problem lies within Mitzi (step-mom)and it is up to Kira to deal with it. I also realized that I have complete faith in my daughter to be able to handle things in a compassionate manner. I know my Kira and she will find a way to forgive Mitzi and I know she is aware  deep down inside that it isn’t her fault and she has no control over Mitzi’s actions.