Monthly Archives: May 2013

In a Strange Land….

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In a Strange Land….

I had reasoned this out in my mind, there was one of two things I had a right to, liberty or death; if I could not have one, I would have the other.
Harriet Tubman

You don’t have to be a slave to live in a prison. Right now I am living in a world full of imprisonment. My husband needs and expects me to drive him everywhere and I highly suspect that if he had his driver’s license he wouldn’t even be with me. My mother is so F’d up on meds she can hardly drive so I am expected to do it. I can’t do or be who I want to be because I am torn down by my mother and my husband and now my daughter is having issues. Frankly I wish I could just be alone without everyone expecting something from me. I don’t get to be my own person, EVER! I am so sick of people expecting shit out of me it’s no wonder I want to just be free to be me, but I don’t know who that is anymore! I would seriously like to tell everyone to fuck off and leave me alone~!!!@!!!!

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It’s All Good…. :)

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It’s All Good…. :)

The state comes into existence for the sake of life and continues to exist for the sake of good life. Aristotle

You would not even begin to believe what I did yesterday. I got the front of my house finished and we had a Mother’s Day BBQ resplendant with good company, good food, and good fun! Michael cooked the burgers and I did the chicken and we hung out with my daughter Kira and her other 1/2 Isaiah, VJ and her other 1/2 Dave, My Mom and Mike, my BF Donna and of course my Rose Bud. It was a beautiful day and we had so much fun. After the BBQ was over I went and spent some quality time with my BFF Donna and I made her go swimming in the pond with me. It was GREAT!!!!!!! Life, my friends is very good right now!!!!!!!!!! 🙂

Everything Feels Surreal….

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Everything Feels Surreal….

Surrealism is destructive, but it destroys only what it considers to be shackles limiting our vision. Salvador Dali

I don’t feel in touch with anything. Everything feels unnatural to me. The lights seem brighter, the darkness more black/ I feel more tired.  I held your bear and I listened to it, but it sounds more like the batteries are dead, like you. It doesn’t have the same life or vivacity that it once did. Part of me is gone, gone forever just like Joey, Emmy, Yukee and Heday. You weren’t supposed to leave me. Dan is having a hard time, he is lost and doesn’t know what to do. I wish I could make you come back.